One day, I was in the bathroom at work (conveniently and, sometimes, INCONVENIENTLY located across from my office) and I dropped a roll of toilet paper in the toilet. It wasn't just clear water, either. It was that magic blue water that is supposed to smell like the Caribbean, but really smells more like a chemical plant. I was sort of a newbie and wasn't quite sure what to do with it. So, I did what any normal, rational person would do--I fished it out and snuck it into the waste basket in my office. I'm pausing so that you can feel free to laugh. It doesn't stop there. My office began smelling so chemically-foul that it made me sick. I bagged up my trash and carried it to the dumpster. This happened about 2 years ago, and I just now realized that I could have bagged the trash in the bathroom and avoided this whole dog-gone mess. Live and learn. So hilarious.
Kendra
Friday, June 24, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Letting Control Take Over
That's right. I'm going to start letting control take over. God's control, that is. I have, for too many years, overworked myself in order to take control of life in general-- and maintain it. I'm exhausted.
The truth is that no matter how well I eat and convince others to do the same, people still die. No matter how hard I work, I will still fail sometimes and people will think I'm and idiot. No matter how accommodating I lower myself to be, some people will still be dissatisfied with me or my family or friends. Regardless of how much I run, spin, stretch, kick, and sweat, I will still have a few varicose veins and little patches of cellulite. Even if I carry my phone everywhere and plan my life for the next 5 years, I can't keep everyone safe and I can't guarantee my success-- or anyone's, for that matter.
Last night I spoke with a friend who is experiencing these same struggles. We embraced the idea that its time to give up a little, take some time to find joy in today, be satisfied with the moment, and know that all the seconds to follow are ultimately in God's control.
Withing the past 48 hours there have been (in my life and in others') dramatic events that have suddenly changed. Some of them changed for the better, in a completely unseen and seemingly impossible way. Others changed for the worse. In each of the situations, I cannot tell you what anyone involved could have done to cause/prevent these changes from occurring. I'm not saying that you can never cause/prevent things-- it would be ignorant to believe that. But it's not ignorant to realize that God is sovereign, and that I can take each step of my life, and every breath that He puts in my lungs knowing that He has total and ultimate control over everything. And its time for me to stop pretending that I carry His responsibilities.
~ Nicole
The truth is that no matter how well I eat and convince others to do the same, people still die. No matter how hard I work, I will still fail sometimes and people will think I'm and idiot. No matter how accommodating I lower myself to be, some people will still be dissatisfied with me or my family or friends. Regardless of how much I run, spin, stretch, kick, and sweat, I will still have a few varicose veins and little patches of cellulite. Even if I carry my phone everywhere and plan my life for the next 5 years, I can't keep everyone safe and I can't guarantee my success-- or anyone's, for that matter.
Last night I spoke with a friend who is experiencing these same struggles. We embraced the idea that its time to give up a little, take some time to find joy in today, be satisfied with the moment, and know that all the seconds to follow are ultimately in God's control.
Withing the past 48 hours there have been (in my life and in others') dramatic events that have suddenly changed. Some of them changed for the better, in a completely unseen and seemingly impossible way. Others changed for the worse. In each of the situations, I cannot tell you what anyone involved could have done to cause/prevent these changes from occurring. I'm not saying that you can never cause/prevent things-- it would be ignorant to believe that. But it's not ignorant to realize that God is sovereign, and that I can take each step of my life, and every breath that He puts in my lungs knowing that He has total and ultimate control over everything. And its time for me to stop pretending that I carry His responsibilities.
~ Nicole
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